In Patricia Spears Jones poem May Perpetual Light Shine, she makes this proclamation;
We have encountered storms
Perfect in their drench and wreck
Each of us bears an ornament of grief
A ring, a notebook, a ticket torn, scar
It is how humans know their kind—
She caught my attention, not only because she is a black American poet, who is treading the hills that poets like Tony Morrison have paved a way, she caught my attention also because my story is like hers, my scars and sadness and joys are like hers, and like humanity too. “Each of us bears an ornament of grief,” how do we pull ourselves from the latch of deep sadness that sometimes renders us useless? How do we find hope when “We have encountered storms”, yet we need to still raise our children, we still need to show up to the job that pays the bills, when we still have to show up for the relationships we have formed? All very dark isn’t it, but maybe there is a point to the sadness.
I believe that part of the story of life is recognizing that the sadness exists and not try to hide away from it. Secondly, seeing that the sadness points to a place in our hearts that needs to heal or get resolved.
On this journey of life that we, humans, have accepted as our fate, we have this grand opportunity to look high above us and trust that our purpose on earth is brighter and more significant than we could ever imagine, that this pain we feel now achieves for us a truth that is needing to come forward, a truth that supersedes our understanding of its meaning.
Maybe we need to look past the hurts and find the strength in the pain or the sadness. Maybe the strength is the testimony that will bring liberation to countless other people. Maybe the strength is in overcoming something that will build character and reposition your identity. Maybe the strength is in knowing that many others have walked this road and connecting with them will build bridges that will open doors and opportunities. Maybe the pain or sadness is forcing you to get the courage to quit the job that stands in between you and your dream. Maybe you have asked for peace, but peace needs to be despite the storms that rage in life, so the opportunity now exists to practice the peace you have prayed for. Maybe you have asked for faith, well, faith looks like something, it looks like having it right now where you are.
This temporary state may need you to not ignore, it may need you to look inward to what it is its pointing to.
You can totally get through anything dear Queen. Stay encouraged.
Of course, if you have signs of depression it is important to see someone who can guide you. Mental health is important please visit http://www.sadag.org/.